Im losing my mind

I think Im going insane. Tomarrow is Autumn's party, and Ive barely gotten one salad done. I have another salad to make, and the WHOLE house to clean. But Lily isnt liking this because shes totally fussy! She wants me to hold her all the time. And Im praying that its something as easy/simple as teething or something, but who knows. Shes kept me up all night, and at one point I was begging her to sleep bc I was SO tired. I seriously need a break, one night that I can sleep and take a bath and be waited on.....

Id love one night in a fancy hotel, where I can get a massage, sleep on a bed that is super fluffy and all for me, and take a bath in a jacuzzi, watch some tv all with some dim lighting. And order room service and relax. I just need one night, Im only 26/27 and I looked in the mirror I look 10yrs older then I am. And I know "Your young dont worry about it.." But I dont think any woman wants to look older then what they are, especially not something like 10 yrs older.

Ive just begun to feel unattractive, and not pretty at all, and tired all the time. So much that Im grumpy more often then not. The worst part is that "Daddy" only sees me as a mom and that I dont need to be told Im pretty or get a lil extra sleep once in a blue moon. Im so busy and my whole life is about the kids that I cant even remember the LAST shower I took, I know it had to be sometime the last week or 2, but I really cant remember. Thats sad....