I was holding on so damn desperately to getting married to this man (my kid's father), but at this point I give up. He annoys me by making EVERYTHING a stupid debate, and when I open up its like telling me Im wrong ALL THE TIME! I want to get married, some for the fact that we have been together for nearly 5 continuous years, and another yr on top of that! We have known eachother for 7 yrs. Ive given birth to 2 girls for him, and nothing. I have gone through hell and back for this man and he thinks that he doesnt owe me anything, like "I pay the bills so I shouldnt have to help you, or anything" And on top of it I now no longer have health insurance because of his stupid income, and I cant get on HIS insurance bc HIS HR doesnt recognize a domestic partnership (which is what we are considered I guess). This ends up resulting in the fact I can no longer get my birth control, and my dental done (especially great since I had a filling come out), and if I get sick Im screwed.
I feel like he doesnt give a damn about this relationship we have, and I should just move on, and I think I would if I could find work and a home here in Minnesota with my girls. I love the state and dont want to live with my parents again/anymore, Im 27 I shouldnt be living with them!
I just want to kick him and tell him how much he hurts me, but if I did heaven forbid he might fly off the handle and who knows what, kick us out so Im left on the fly out of a home? I just give up, I guess the last person who wanted to be with me was my ex, who I really dislike!!
Blog out~
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