WOW computers suck

So I cant seem to get anything done because my computer never seems to work. Its a little silly because its not even like anything major... See the screen on my laptop is cracked, so I have a monitor hooked up to the laptop, works great!! Really does!!!! Because the monitor reduces glare. But then suddenly the monitor started acting up, I would turn the laptop on (and you can tell when this thing is on) and then suddenly the monitor would turn off.... and it has been back and forth for weeks!!! Im getting a little more then annoyed, and would love to just buy a new whole system (a bit hard to do when you dont have work or money). But that is the deal if I dont write that would be why.

Id like to share a photo I took today though.

Lily is 4 months old tomarrow, I cant believe how big she is getting to be!!! Its crazy seems like it was just yesterday I was cleaning the house in preperation to be induced! She loves to look at things and baby talk to people!! Plus shes mommy's little cuddle bunny! Such a sweetie!

I WAS holding on but..

So its going to be an annoyed ranting blog today....

I was holding on so damn desperately to getting married to this man (my kid's father), but at this point I give up. He annoys me by making EVERYTHING a stupid debate, and when I open up its like telling me Im wrong ALL THE TIME! I want to get married, some for the fact that we have been together for nearly 5 continuous years, and another yr on top of that! We have known eachother for 7 yrs. Ive given birth to 2 girls for him, and nothing. I have gone through hell and back for this man and he thinks that he doesnt owe me anything, like "I pay the bills so I shouldnt have to help you, or anything" And on top of it I now no longer have health insurance because of his stupid income, and I cant get on HIS insurance bc HIS HR doesnt recognize a domestic partnership (which is what we are considered I guess). This ends up resulting in the fact I can no longer get my birth control, and my dental done (especially great since I had a filling come out), and if I get sick Im screwed.

I feel like he doesnt give a damn about this relationship we have, and I should just move on, and I think I would if I could find work and a home here in Minnesota with my girls. I love the state and dont want to live with my parents again/anymore, Im 27 I shouldnt be living with them!

I just want to kick him and tell him how much he hurts me, but if I did heaven forbid he might fly off the handle and who knows what, kick us out so Im left on the fly out of a home? I just give up, I guess the last person who wanted to be with me was my ex, who I really dislike!!

Blog out~