Its going to be one of those days

So it seems that everyday about 3/4 Central time I post, ha! Its grey out today, making my mood a lil sleepy. But I found this cool live animal cam today (whenever I need a zoo fix and cant get it I try to look at zoo's webcams. This one though is in Africa, its africam (or something like that) right now its like after 10pm there, so its mostly night vision, I didnt actually see anymore then a duck, but I didnt spend a ton of time watching it. It was cool though.

Otherwise I am starting to hope for a lotta things. One being that I get a reason, or this feelign like crap all the time goes away soon, and that Lily is gonna be on my team. Right now shes neutral, and my boyfriend has Autumn... So I hope for Lily to be team Mommy.

I havent cooked in a few days, but Lily has been a lil clingy. Happens with a newborn. But on Autumn's birthday next week I plan on making 100% homemade pizzas. Pizza#1: Chicken Hawaiian grilled pizza. Pizza#2: Sausage & Pepperoni. & Pizza#3: S'more pizza with chocolate, peanut butter & Marshmellows. We might have a 4th but I need to know how many people are gonna come first for just her birthday, and what they like to figure that one out.

Then on June 4th, we are having a birthday party for Autumn, shes gonna be 3 this year. So its a Spongebob party. A filled cake, balloons, sandbox, bubbles, etc. Food, burgers, hotdogs, cake..... wait I said that didnt I?

Thats just so far... I wish I had something MORE exciting but thats how it is when you have 2 young kids and no life.