Sorry its been so long

But it has been SUPER busy around here. Just last week we got a new puppy! An English Mastiff, she was born the same day as Lily, and she was free. Shes pretty good, but only 2 mnths old so she chews on EVERYTHING. She is already 28lbs, and getting use to the house. But along with her, we have been just generally busy getting ready for Autumn's birthday party on the 4th. She turned 3 this past week (the 27th to be exact).

I cant believe she is already 3. And on top of all the excitement, she has been accident prone lately. I wonder if its just a phase, doubt it. Lets see, a few days ago she was playing and somehow without knowing skinned the top of one of her toes, then yesterday she wore a pair of new shoes and got a blister from how stiff they are on the back of her foot, opened the heavy wood door so hard she hit herself in the face, tripped and fell on the sidewalk and scrapped her hands...... and I want to say theres something else in there that I cant think of. But shes been very accident prone.

I hope Lily isnt the same.

Its going to be one of those days

So it seems that everyday about 3/4 Central time I post, ha! Its grey out today, making my mood a lil sleepy. But I found this cool live animal cam today (whenever I need a zoo fix and cant get it I try to look at zoo's webcams. This one though is in Africa, its africam (or something like that) right now its like after 10pm there, so its mostly night vision, I didnt actually see anymore then a duck, but I didnt spend a ton of time watching it. It was cool though.

Otherwise I am starting to hope for a lotta things. One being that I get a reason, or this feelign like crap all the time goes away soon, and that Lily is gonna be on my team. Right now shes neutral, and my boyfriend has Autumn... So I hope for Lily to be team Mommy.

I havent cooked in a few days, but Lily has been a lil clingy. Happens with a newborn. But on Autumn's birthday next week I plan on making 100% homemade pizzas. Pizza#1: Chicken Hawaiian grilled pizza. Pizza#2: Sausage & Pepperoni. & Pizza#3: S'more pizza with chocolate, peanut butter & Marshmellows. We might have a 4th but I need to know how many people are gonna come first for just her birthday, and what they like to figure that one out.

Then on June 4th, we are having a birthday party for Autumn, shes gonna be 3 this year. So its a Spongebob party. A filled cake, balloons, sandbox, bubbles, etc. Food, burgers, hotdogs, cake..... wait I said that didnt I?

Thats just so far... I wish I had something MORE exciting but thats how it is when you have 2 young kids and no life.

Hooray!!

So first let me say I am OVERJOYED that people are reading!!!!! Makes me smile ear to ear!

Now on to today.... For anyone who doesnt live in Minnesota like I do, its been nice out, I know I should take my daughters outside MORE, but I never realized how much of a challenge that was when you have a newborn, and are mostly home alone all the time. Not that their dad, and my boyfriend doesnt help out, but just because this week he has NOT had a day off. Sometimes I could just scream bc of how erratic his work schedule is. But we make due. And I just want to say I feel a lil guilty for not taking them out more.

As far as other things, if you read my pregnancy/intro thing I said I have a son as well, but I havent said anything about him in my daily posts, reason (which I am blanking if I have touched on this but) being is he lives in another state with his dad, and stepmom. I talk to him once a week, and I get him for some time during his vacations. But I am very agitated with his father, bc I agreed last year that we would gradually take Riley from never being at my home to more and more time. So last year I had him 2wks in the summer, and expected at least 3wks this year. I was blasted from his father that they only WANTED me to have him 2wks only, with lame excuse after lame excuse. Im getting a little sick of his crap, but since this is a public blog I will NOT be saying too much on the subject, unless Riley is around then I might talk about him.

Anyways, I am still hoping to see him this summer, but it is a work in progress. Autumn loves him........ Ah Autumn, my non-verbal daughter, I love her.... last night she figured out who Lady Gaga is...... Watching fuse on tv and its a Gaga-thon, Autumn seen a video and asked who it was... I awnsered; Gaga; eventually the conversation turned into Gaga's boobs. Shes 3, but she knows what they are and as far as she knows those were food for Lily. I just thought that was funny. Had to share. Well I will go for now, perhaps I will post more later. See ya'll

Totally forgot; Dinner yesterday (5/17th)

Oh Oh Oh!!! I MADE the best dinner yesterday. Seeing as it was just me and the girls, I figured something quick would be perfect, or at least something I wouldnt have to sit there and watch like steak or anything on the grill.... So I started at like 3pm or something like that to make a "Basic Pizza dough" then after it sat for 1 1/2hours my 2 dough balls had risen, I rolled one (froze the other) and spread it with not pizza sauce but 3 cheese pasta sauce. Autumn wanted hotdogs on it, so I spread out sliced hotdogs, topped with cheddar cheese, baked for 20 mins.... and the results were GREAT!

AHH what kinda kiddo do I have?

So I am wondering if Lily isn't some sort of adhesive baby. She has been stuck to me like glue all day long, I put her down for a nap... She wakes up and cries. Its crazy. But on a lighter note we took the girls to a nearby park in Stillwater. It was hot, and this makes me worry about what the summer might bring, thank heaven for ACs.

But as you can tell it was still a fun trip. Came home and I have been just changing diapers, and what not.

Though my most recent concern is for the fact that I have been feeling ill, and (except today) Monday and Tuesday I was cramping all day & night. It wouldnt bother me and I would typically think this is normal, but I have recently gotten a birthcontrol shot, meaning I shouldnt have any cramping of any sort for 3months. I am hanging on though until me and the girls go in for appointments on the 31st. They (poor things) will be getting shots, me? I have a silly asthma check. I feel like telling them to just drop it, bc I have been handling my asthma for 8yrs on my own with minimal episodes..... I think I can handle it. But whatever. Ill probably find out then what in the wide world of sports is wrong with me.

Well better get, I hear Darling Lily crying.... as usual. lol Blog ya late

Mommy's lil alarm clock

So I apologize to everyone/anyone who might be reading, I am still figuring this whole thing out.

But onto bigger better things! Lily, my newest little sweetie decided last night was playtime... which needless to say was a little fustrating. I had been trying ALL DAY LONG to keep her up a little bit to play and whatnot, with failure. And then at 3am she woke me up, I would had woke her dad for a minute to help me after the time kept going on and on and on, but he was stuck at work. For the fact I havent mentioned much about him is because hes always busy. And his scheduled work times are typically 4pm to 2am. So anyways onto the story; Lily woke me up, so I got up, changed her diaper, made her a bottle, and even changed her into jammies. And yet the little girl stayed awake till nearly 6am. Finally I went back to bed just to wake at 6:30am to her big sister; Autumn crying, what about I am still unsure of. Its been a long night sorry its so short but that is how it is today.

Its been busy, but now the work

So over the past weeks I have taken on the hard task of caring for my 2 daughters and planning my toddler's 3rd birthday.

So far the conclusion is at a theme (Spongebob, is the favorite), and the cake will be ordered as one with a filling.

Now to everything else. I am debating on planning a lil tea party for my toddler on her birthday, it is a friday and if people are around or even if its me and her who says we cant have some fun. I never got to have a tea party as a kid myself so its gotta be fun, Im sure. Now I just have to figure out what to make, decorations etc..... Martha Stewart HERE I COME!

Ah quiet

So this is the first post and the biggest thing I have to brag about? Both of my girls are asleep! See I have 2 girls, one measuring in at almost 3years old, and another measuring in at 6 weeks old. As you can imagine it was easy to get my 6week old to sleep, but my 3year old? She is a WHOLE other story. Most days are a fight with her, and when they aren't a fight its because Im telling her that "Daddy is at work".

Its kind of boring, and super quiet, how did I take advantage of the quiet Mommy time? I watched Junior, you know that movie where the man takes a bunch of a medication and gets pregnant then has his baby? Yeah how sad is that? But it was better then my usual days which are typically worrying about money, food, clothes, my relationship with my boyfriend, and my kids, things like that. Or the biggest thing lately? Being annoyed that Im not getting married (NOT EVEN CLOSE) I know some may think Im living in sin or whatever. But I think of it Im in love, Im committed, and this is the father of my girls. I also have a boy.... He lives with his dad and step mom. Im a little annoyed that they are not willing to give me the time with my son this summer that would be fair, and believe that even though they get most holidays with him, that they need one more, and one less for me and my family. ARGH!

But its gonna be leftovers tonight while the Darling is at work, and whatever we can scrounge up. Eh, still good since steak is tomarrow night

Me as a mom ~ intro. (5/11)

Im a mom, I love it although there can be some tough times. I have an ex, I have kids that I love so very much. I have a man in my life though sometimes I think it would be easier if he wasn't (kidding). I stay home, not because I necessarily choose to, but because that is what makes sense right now. Lets face it ladies kids are not cheap! But I would do it in a heartbeat all over again.

Im young, and I have made mistakes, but I take care of my kids and my family. I hope you keep reading, and I hope that this brings you comfort, knowledge, advice, and a friend. Because you are NOT alone!

I have 2 1/2 kids, 2 girls that live with me, and a son who is with his dad. My son was born in the middle of summer. It sucked, hot, muggy, and I was in a whole lotta pain! He was healthy, 8lbs 8oz. My first daughter born 3 yrs ago, she gave me a run for my money. Went to the hospital once because her heartrate dropped down, then she decided to make me wait a week longer. She was born and weighed 8lbs 9oz. My second daughter normal boring pregnancy. She weighed in at 8lbs 5oz.

My kids are great, and they are my world. Just see what all I put in here, my days, nights, events, thoughts, hopes, and maybe some poetry or recipes.